Showing posts with label jobs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label jobs. Show all posts

Monday, April 20, 2015

The Dream Job Offer.


As some of you may know I have struggled with finding work as a multimedia expert, and have struggled just as hard to find any work at all up until three years ago because somehow I could not get anyone to hire me anywhere. However, once I did break into being a sales rep, I quickly found my way up the ladder, and have been in a few positions which I was quite happy with. However I still hold out hope of finding a great 3D multimedia position. 

So imagine my surprise when I get a phone call out of the blue from a company looking for just that. It was a position for a 3D specialist with my skill set. So I interviewed with him on the phone.
Now what I somehow missed was the fact that this position was in the Dallas/Arlington area, and that I would have to move away from my family, and convince my fiancé to move with me as well. Still I heard him out, and was really interested in finding out more. I did not hear from him again for another month or two but when I did. I realized that is was indeed in Arlington, TX, but that it was basically my dream job as a multimedia 3D expert.

So this set up the interview with the actual client where there were misunderstandings a plenty. But I seemed to impress them.

From then on I waited a few weeks to hear back, and when I finally was contacted it was by another 3rd party hiring firm who was in charge of salary details, and start date. I informed them of my salary requirements, and my starting date. I also let them know I would want to put in my two week notice for my current position. They agreed and informed me that they would get back to me.

On April first however I received a phone call from my contact informing me that I had been selected for the position, that they had not only accepted my salary requirements, but actually raised them by $5,000 a year, and were going to pay me a $2,500 relocation fee. I was extremely excited as anyone would be that all of the sudden my dream job had fallen into my lap, and was planning to pay me enough money to make up for all the years of trying. To top it off the position was with a combination of two huge game companies I've always wanted to work for.

I was then told that I should put in my two week notice immediately, we set a start date, and I was told that I would receive the emailed job offer that Friday or Monday at the latest. However...Friday came and went, along with Monday…I called my contact there and there was no answer. I then emailed the first person who emailed me asking for the offer letter and received an odd response.

“This requirement is taken care by Seema she will reach you directly if we need to schedule interviews with the customer.”-Sunil.

To which I replied

“You seem to have misunderstood. I was offered the position. Seema called me, offered me the position, and told me to put in my two week notice. After that I did not hear from her again. This does not seem like a normal thing to do to someone so I was wondering if I could receive the offer letter, otherwise there is nothing to the job offer.”

His next response was just as odd. “Please coordinate with Seema. Excuse typos!”-Sunil
The problem was that Seema apparently did not answer her phone. So I asked Sunil for her email address. He did not respond. The next day I asked him again, and it wasn’t until the next day that he gave me her email address. I then decided to write her.
“Seema,
You offered me this position April first, you told me to put my two week notice in, and you never called me back. I have called your number several times. I have left a message with you. I have emailed Sunil, and other contact people in your company. I am at a loss as to why somebody would offer someone a job, tell them to leave their stable job and then never contact them again. I really feel like this needs an explanation.”
She actually responded to me with this…

“I apologize for any confusion but when we talked, I mentioned the position is almost confirmed but I still needed the written confirmation from the client and I will get back to you with the joining date if we will proceed with your hiring.

 I also tried reaching your number two times and left a voice message too but never got a call back on my cell number as requested so thought you would not have been interested in further discussions.”
Right…so…I wrote her back…

“I received no phone calls, no voicemails, and no emails. I can only assume you have my email and possibly you got my phone number wrong? I do have the job offer phone call recorded and have re-listened to it. There was no confusion. I was offered the job, I was told to put my two week notice on April 2nd, and you told me that I would receive the offer letter by Friday, or Monday at the latest.
You also told me you would send me an email that night confirming that I was chosen to take the position. So I'm still confused by this. I could've put in my two week notice and ended up jobless at this point.”
Her final response to me was very similar to all the others. She completely missed the point.

“As I talked to you to find out if you were still available for that position and when you would be able to join. After that the position went on hold from the client side and did not proceed with your hiring.
 I tried reaching you over the phone and ended up in leaving the voice message. I did not try calling you after two times as was not even sure if have been reaching you on the correct number. Again, I sincerely apologize for all this.”

So here you have it. One call out of the blue, several interviews, one life changing job offer, a request to leave my job that could’ve ruined my life, and one “sincere apology.” I wasn’t sure what to write back, but I decided I would ask for the offer letter anyway to shop around town for a similar position.  
                                                                                                                                


Monday, April 28, 2014

I'm going to lose my sanity...whatever's left in the jar anyways.

Allow me to explain my job searching predicament as an adult with Aspergers over the last 10+ years. Since I left high-school I have only had a handful of jobs

My first job was at Tuesday Morning and I only received it because my mother came and guilted them into hiring me. When I finally left there to go to college I managed to get a short gig at Gamestop seasonally because I had a friend there, which ended when almost everyone was stealing (except me) and everyone including seasonal was fired. Or in my case not renewed.

My third job was at Spencer's Gifts  in the Woodlands Mall which I only got because a friend got me in and it was only to help build the new store which turned into a job because I'm a hard worker. From then I had a very short gig at a really stupid portrait studio with a bunch of petty gossiping idiots who had it out for me. That lasted a month. I worked on and off for a friend's Art Gallery as a manager/graphic designer. Then I worked at Randall's in the deli section until I finally got a gig being a sales rep for Lenovo.

I started part time and within a month I was promoted to full time Market Development Manager for all of South Houston. That is until the contract ended, and I was offered a miniscule seriously part time position as an Intel rep with the same company...Not enough to live on.  So I moved on to a part time rep for Samsung...

The sad part? I've had 10 jobs in 10 years, almost all of them involved somebody begging for me to get the job, and almost none of the jobs lasted more than a couple months. I've spent more time being unemployed than I have being employed in the last 10 years. And not for lack of trying. I've tried to both find jobs and make money in many a failed way...

In person: 
Cold calls, visiting shops on foot, friends attempting to get me interviews/positions, visiting job seminars, and job fairs.

Job Placement services: 
Creative Group, Creative Circle, Ashley Ellis, Teksystems, Texas Workforce Commission, Insperity, and Autum's Dawn, as well as several other job placement services.

Online:
My personal website, LinkedIn, Monster, Indeed, Simplyhired, Careerbuilder, Behance, Elance, Odesk, freelancer.com, Professional Facebook, Deviatart, and Deviantart portfolio,Craigslist, Plus youtube, Vimeo, and others including various 3D model / music selling sites.

Places I've applied for that I can remember: 
Best Buy, Office Depot, Office Max, Staples, Fry's, Blockbuster, Gamestop, Starbucks, McCDonalds, Burger King, Taco Bell, Wendy's, JC Penny's Sears, TJ Max, Chipotle, Circuit City, Target, Walmart, Subway, and hundreds more...

99.9% of the things I've applied for never even bothered to write me back. I've had maybe 25 interviews in 10 years, and the majority of them ended with "no thank you." The money making endeavers have ended with me being awarded zero projects on project sites, zero dollars selling things on ebay, and craigslist, and around $40 making and selling 3D models. Nothing I do does anything at all, and it doesn't seem to matter what it is.

I am a multimedia graphic artist. I use 15+ programs. I went to an art highschool, I have a degree. I have a portfolio/website, and I have zero prospects. I have tried everything. I've tried job placement, I've tried cold calling, I've tried project bidding sites, I've tried running my own business, I've broken down and got help from a government agency who made me get re-diagnosed with aspergers so they could hook me up with job placement companies who also failed me.

I can't keep doing this. I don't know where to start. At all. It honestly feels like I am marked. Like there is some human consensus not to let me in, to let me win, to let me be a part of anything at all. As crazy as I'm sure anybody reading that thinks it sounds it's not.

I spent my entire life trying to learn to act like neurotypicals, and in my success I have given them a reason to fear me. I am stuck in the uncanny valley where I am just far/close enough to normal to be terrifying. I see the same stupid look on peoples faces every day. I usually don't care but when the neurotypicals are the gatekeeper of your career it kind of matters.

I'm tired of stupid advice, I'm tired of hollow kind words, I'm tired of top ten "what to do lists" about careers. I'm tired of trying day in and day out, and I'm tired of years and years, and 100's of people blaming me for not trying hard enough, or doing the right thing, or claiming I'm some sort of self saboteur. So I'm just going to say it. Here's what I want. My supposed Dream job.

My dream job is to create 3D animation and Motion graphics projects for a company or as a freelancer while working on my own shorts, tv shows, movies, games whatever. I have a lot in my head that I want to do, but the longer I do this stupid game of cat and mouse the less strength I have to do any of it.

Like right now...I'm seriously done writing.

For now...