Now, I do have the ability to act nuerotypical better than most Aspie people, and I do have a high tolerance to most of these things even though some can break through my defenses. There is no blocking a laser hitting your eye, and it immediately causing a sharp pain in various brain areas. (not joking), and the alarm when it's so close causes more pain in my ears, chest, and head.
Add on the stress of the random boss showing up (who himself was stressing out, with the other guy)
They both were very business oriented, straight to business oriented...Which I understand but at the same time is another set of rules I'm not overly understanding of or happy with. But I play along, listen to the grade A overly simplified explanations of how things work. "You know, how you walk into a store in California, and new York and they look the same, that's what we are going for." dO_ob...yeah?
Sometimes I'm too smart for my own good I guess, but the point of all of this, long winded or not is that these sensory issues stay long after the stimuli leaves. Our senses: Taste, touch, smell, hearing, sight, and emotions all have a ridiculous staying power. I felt where the laser hit my eye for 2 days. The first second of the alarms instills a shock that lasts for a good 30 minutes to an hour, not to mention the actual sound leaving a ringing that may last just as long.
The emotional stuff like stress, anger, fear, as well as the good emotions can last quite a while after (the negative ones last longer and often burn stronger) So having those higher ups around lasted well into the night after they left. They are cool guys mind you, but their stress is catching is all I'm saying.
Yes I know. Aspie people are not supposed to be able to feel/show emotion which by the way is completely wrong. In the original diagnoses yes we can't "show" emotion, and we have trouble understanding others, but A: that doesn't mean we don't' have our own, and B: as we learn the reasoning behind others emotions they weigh so heavily on us that we sometimes cannot distinguish them from our own.
And again all of these things stay with us for hours if not days. I do have a ridiculous defense built up to where I can withstand almost everything that's thrown at me, but even still there's a limit. I mean I can get cussed out by a customer, maintain my composure and even talk them down, but the implications of a boss being upset about how things are running, or being pulled over by cops, or interviews, any situation that matters there is a huge stress level.
So no matter how high functions the person you are talking to is please do realize that to you it's just a loud noise, or an angry customer, or a "stressful" boss. For us it's the worst version of all of that, plus all the flickering screens, billions of noises, emotions, and most of us also sense/feel light on our skin as well which is pretty annoying. So add on to the fact that all of these things are long lasting, and it's not overly fun. Imagine listening to 5 songs from various genres, and then having a reverb and an echo on them.
All I'm saying is, you have to realize that this isn't just "the world" for us, it's not as easy as it is for everyone else. We have to put on a shell, block out as much as we can, and face some things head on. All that being said, I see this more as an out of control superpower, than a disability. Just saying.
