Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Interview With an Update.



I figured I would write a little update.

Some of you (if there are some of you) may have heard that I had an interview today. It was with a job placement firm for a Video Game Level Design (3D modeler) The interview went well though I was a little nervous. A very strange situation job placement companies are and yet I've done 3-4 interviews with various placement firms and gotten literally nowhere. Mostly because they claimed I was under qualified, or they didn't have the type of jobs I was after.

However this seemed different. The interview went well, and I handled myself and presented myself as best I could. The interviewer was nice though I picked up on some subtle changes I wasn't sure about. She said she thought I would be great for the 3D modeler job, and she was going to send my paperwork and portfolio over, but she also offered me a chance to do a quote for a Professional facebook creating job for an oil company which may or may not be a full time thing.

Either way, I'm hoping to do either or, or both. I'm trying to make enough to pay bills, pay off any debts, and save up to move on with my fiancé. She's been counting on me, as have my family, and It's about time my hard work paid off. My family has been struggling lately with earth shattering changes, and there are emotions a plenty around me. Me getting this going will definitely be the change I was fighting for.

I am also halfway through my two month candida kill-off diet. My stomach is flatter, my mind works faster (when I've had sleep), and I feel better. Still taking GABA, and probiotics, and fiber. More on all that later. Anyways.

Signed, The wolf minded aspie
-Thatonewolf

P.s. Expect more Animation projects from me. Here is my first animated short, if you missed it.


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Lifestlyes of the Poor and Aspie.

I am at a loss.

I grew up doing the right thing. I told the truth, stayed off drugs, have a clean criminal record, finished high-school, Got my degree. All the things you are supposed to do according to "everyone" I did. And it has gotten me literally nowhere.

I have aspergers, and always had. I've been mocked, emotionally tortured, picked on, dealt with the awkward situations caused by not knowing social protocol. But I evolved, trial and error, even with the sharp learning curb. I have evolved into a strong mature adult with a fiance, in a very satisfying, and thoroughly thought out strong relationship...but

I sit around every day applying for job after job, sometimes 30 at a time...No responses, no nothing. And before you assume my degree is one of those useless throwaway degrees most people complain about after graduating. My degree is: "Graphic Design 3D Animation A.A. Degree."

A degree in graphic design. I have the ability to use 15 or so of the top graphics programs. Lightwave, Zbrush, After Effects, Premiere, Photoshop, Illustrator, Autocad, and even motion capture and 3D scanning programs. It does not seem to matter to anyone. 

And as I sit around all day applying for jobs until (like right now) I want to bash my head against the wall, my family is struggling, and my fiance is waiting in the wings for me to come through for both of us. And everyone, including myself is losing hope.

I am good at what I do, and I know I can basically do anything when it comes to graphics, but I can't even find an entry level job doing what I do. and when I apply for the proverbial "any job" I'm told to get in desperation from the people around me, I get no responses from them either. Walmart, Target, Best Buy, Fedex Kinkos. Not a single call back.

Meanwhile I'm fighting some parasitic entity inside my body that's been probably solely responsible for most, if not all of the physical ailments in my life. I've had to change my diet completely to avoid sugar, most carbs, all starches, no canned foods, nearly nothing. While taking medicine hoping I can flush this "candida" bastard out of my blood, and my system.

All the while my family is falling apart. Splitting at the seams. Nobody is who they were, or who we thought they were. My only way out of any of these situations is to find work...Work...Hide and seek champion of the last 4 years.

Just had to get that out there. Tip of the iceberg people.
-thatonewolf

Friday, June 15, 2012


It has not recently come to my attention, but always been at the forefront to my attention that most people don't believe a word I say. Mostly because the things that happen seem impossible, but for some of those things there were friends present when they happened. So here are a few impossible things, and some of the people involved. Those friends can stop by this post and back me up if they feel like it. And also should remind me of times I missed. So here we go:

(two things you need to know)

*A doodlabut- is the subspecies of human beings that is often described as redneck, or hillbilly, but are actually much further down the line and often inbred. I am not so much making fun of these people as I am deathly afraid of them because they move and look like zombies and I can't understand the doodlabut language. (gibberish)

*cornered wolf syndrome- is my term for the fact that when intoxicated in any way by medication, lack of sleep, or pain/injury I become extremely snappy and untrusting of my surroundings. (other triggers are: being downtown and stressed, and any confrontation with doodlabuts.) *Probably can be attributed to having aspergers.

  • Felix Navarro:

My friend Felix has been a close friend for at least 6 years and has been there for quite a large amount of crazy happenings.

1: In one single day I had a French woman working at woodlands mall demand that I give her my hat, and repeatedly asked for it as if I would just give it to her, THEN when we went to Jason's Deli in Humble and I ordered "roast beef on a bagel with honey mustard and provolone" and I received a Ruben with avocado and bean sprouts, which (for those of you who know me) I cannot eat. And when I told the waiter I didn't order it, a semi-m.r. manager came and told me "you can't just order something and say you don't want it cause you don't like it." It took 4 min of arguing and me finally showing her my receipt for her to believe me.

2: On another occasion me and Felix were eating at Ihop in Humble and a shirtless sweaty Hispanic guy comes in and demands to see someone who works there, is asked to leave and then beats on the window from outside yelling. The manager stated "I'm calling the cops" and within a minute of her picking up the phone there was a siren outside and he was handcuffed and arrest.
 (There are many more examples of things he's seen happen around me)

3:  So one day me, Felix, and Robert decided to go to Galveston to practice some kung-fu. We stopped at this place called "The Golden Buddha" which was a little Chinese place near the seawall. There were no cars in the parking lot, and we were wondering if they were even open. We walk in, and see nobody, we wait a minute or so and a seriously stereotypical fu-man-chu older Chinese guy comes out and sits us with a weird look on his face. The place looked like a dungeon, and sort of felt twilight zone-y because he was the only person we saw inside and there was no noise other than that.
           He comes to take our order and we each picked an entree, and the type of rice we wanted (steamed/fried) but there was a problem. If you got steamed rice "you get moe meat" and if you get fried rice you get "less meat", and even though we got it the first time, he repeated it over and over getting more and more angry.  So when it came to me and I ordered beef and broccoli and told him I wanted steamed rice, he apparently didn't believe me. So he begins to explain it again. And when I assured him I wanted steamed rice he then pointed at the menu and yelled at me "LOOK AT MENU!" then repeated his mantra about moe and less meat.  yelling every so often "NO AT MENU!"
We honestly though we were going to die, or he was going to fade away and the place would suddenly change to a closed down shack with cobwebs. Creepy. So let that be a lesson to you folks...Look at menu.

4: 2times me and Felix's paths were impeded by an albino armadillo. Once in Jesse Jones Park a mother or father armadillo greeted us with angry noises and slammed his hands on the ground telling us to get lost. Apparently his little ones were nearby.  And another time it was pitch black on 1960 on the way to IHOP with Felix and he's driving, and yet another albino armadillo runs out in the middle of the road as Felix swerves to miss him.

5: The red eyed bird, and his horrible voiced light complexioned cousin. One time in Jesse Jones park, Felix brought his camera for pictures and we saw a brownish bird with a long neck standing in the water on the boardwalk. He took it's picture and in pure horror movie style it opened it's eyes which were blood red and looked right at him. Seriously scary.
            While on the other hand we were training on the beach in Jesse Jones and we saw this gorgeous white bird with a long neck flying over the river that runs through there and we stopped to admire it's beauty (pause here to put fist in the air passionately) But just then...it spoke. "WUAGGGHLLLKHG" Seriously one of the most horrific sounds ever. We were in shock. Several weeks later we saw another one and he landed on a tree on the bank of the river where we could no longer see him. But apparently several crows could. They were in the tree and apparently were yelling at him and pecking at him trying to get him to leave. He kept screaming his weird noise and after being picked on for a minute he screamed out again throwing his huge wings out and knocking everybody out of the tree. lol amazing.

  • Patrick Alcala:

I seriously can't remember half of the stuff with me and Patrick (help me out dude)
1: Me and Patrick found some great steaks for a good price at Humble Walmart and were thinking of good things to put on it. So we went over by the cheese and were discussing things until an old grey haired Doodlabut woman in a motorized shopping cart wheeled up and said in Semi coherent doodlabut speak "You know if you eat that cheese you'll start laughing" I froze...and Patrick said "sure does" and we walked off freaked out. Shortly after, we tried to leave and at the end of the freezer case isle she drove by in her shopping cart saying "HAHAHA I'M STILL HERE!" (Continued in Mat Martin's section)

2: At Los Cucos in Humble me, Patrick, Tori, Kate and David were eating and I was showing off my new shoes when a shady (I escaped from the asylum this morning) looking hobo with a knapsack shuffled into the restaurant and past our table to the patio, where he sat down alone, plopped down his knapsack, opened it, and rolled his own cigarette after a few minutes of rocking back and forth and acting strange. At some point he was asked to leave because he was frightening the customers.

3: One time me Patrick and David went to a Porter Pawn shop and as we were walking in, the person in fron of us had a neo nazi swaztika  on his arm and I was like...um...uh oh....but Patrick and David had already walked in after him. Inside there were two other male neo nazi's one with a wife and child...It was...hilarious. And somewhat scary.

4: At "dos gallos" by my grandmother's house (mentioned later In her section) Me, Patrick, and David were checking out after eating, and an old man in a zuit suit and matching hat is standing there smiling at us and swinging a chain (yes like in the old days) Patrick said "how's it goin?" and a semi laughing way to which the man replied. "I'm giving out babies for free today...to ladies with glasses of tea...if you know any ladies who want any babies...just send those ladies to me..." And walked out swinging his chain. lol We see him in the neighborhood, and he has apparently hit on my grandmother before. lol

5: Our first and only time at HB steakhouse in Humble was very Twilight Zone. First off I ordered hibachi, and Patrick ordered Some sushi. We both got Dr pepper (actually mine was sprite) Anyways...it took forever for the hibachi guy to come, and when he did we had been waiting for refills...and when the refill guy came he filled mine and asked Patrick
"diet coke?"-him
"no...Dr pepper"-Patrick
"diet coke?"-him
"...Dr Pepper.-Patrick
(repeat 9 times)
So the guy pours a drink into Patricks glass and walks off.
The sushi Patrick ordered is on a plate being walked over by an old man...but he stops, checks the ticket, looks at patrick, looks at the sushi, and walks back to the kitchen. Then 5 min later he reapears and does the same thing and walks off...THEN an old lady confronts him and brings it to Patrick, Patrick starts to eat the sushi and sips his drink...what do you know? Diet coke. lol

6: One time me and Patrick and everyone else were at Waffle house and this guy came in saying something about a paintball gun, and kids shooting at him. I think. I'm not sure. He was speaking doodlabut and I could only understand him for some reason when he was talking directly at me. He was all sweaty and confusing, and obviously confused. He kept talking to people like we should know who he is and I couldn't understand any of it.

7: Another time me and Patrick were at Golden Corral and despite our ridiculously racist angry waitress we were having a good time. While a couple sat across from us talking about something. The girl asks the guy a question, and the guy answered it still eating. Apparently she already knew the answer, and he lied. Something about seeing other women. But ANYWAYS. This dude, no joke, as she is walking away and out the building starts saying "baby...babe....baby...come on! baby come on!...babe....baby..." while still shoveling food in his face. He was EATING while beckoning her to come back...wow. lol

  • Victoria Elliot (Tori):

Some of the weirder stuff happens to Tori and not always with me. But here are a few with me.
1: In Galveston (with Patrick and David and I) A drunk Mexican man who barely spoke English came and approached us coming out of Joe's crab shack and I can only describe it as "worshiped her"? Giving her a few dollars, and some used phone/gift cards.

2: In Chinatown mall an aging sickly Vietnamese man came and grabbed her hand and in broken English he barely audibly explained something about "many died" and "like you." It was quite sad.

  • David Alcala:

Way too many to remember. (help me out David)

1: In a Chinatown bookstore an older Chinese lady smiles at us as we walk in and start to look around, but her daughter or possibly granddaughter says "uh...can I help you?" in an extremely rude way. I said "oh we just wanted to see what all you have" to which she replied "um this is a CHINESE book store?" Like we were too stupid to understand that. I either said in English or Chinese "yeah I know" and explained that I was in school for it. She followed us around the store reluctantly showing us but really so she could watch us.

2: After ordering some of my paintings on smaller picture format from Porter walmart (mistake) I came to pick them up with David and had zero sleep. I went to check out with the picture all freaked out and ready to leave because of all the doodlabuts there and the skipping cd over the loudspeaker playing 80's music. And I handed the pictures over and am informed rudely and in an "I caught you!" type manner that I cannot be sold the pictures because they had had a signature on them and bla bla bla...and before she could finished I quite precisely and quickly shot her down by saying in Groucho style and with one breath "yes you can, these are my paintings, that is my signature, here is my i.d. with my signature, here is my graphic design business card, ring it up."

3:One time at Taco Bell by North Harris I had already ordered my food and Patrick and David showed up and sat with me waiting saying they didn't want anything. So I had already waited 5 minutes, and 5 more after they got there. I went up several times asking about my food, and was told they would have it right out. I go up there again 5 minutes later and she tries to hand me the number before me's food (which they made twice) and I informed her that it wasn't mine and I was the number after her....just as Patrick and David walked up behind me with their arms cross looking accidentally menacing....Yeah...I got my food, and was hastily and fearfully given the food they had accidentally made to appease the MIGHTY Patrick and David.

  • Mat Daniel Martin:

Mat has also been around on and off for a long period of time, and has been astonished by some of the weird things that have happened around me.

1: A year after the original "if you eat that cheese you'll start laughing" incident. I told Mat about it, he didn't really believe me and me and him went to Walmart together. After a minute inside I saw the SAME woman in a motorized shopping cart, and her daughter (also a doodlabut) with black long hair in a second motorized shopping cart. I pointed them out and avoided them out of fear. While in the dairy section the black haird 40+ year old daughter drives out of nowhere screaming "MAWMA?! MAWMA!?" as me and Mat froze and looked on. "You SEEN MY MAWMA?!" It was...terrifying.

2: When we first moved into the house we are in now, I kept telling my family, and my friends that every time I get in my car and pull out of the driveway and angry wasp would pop out of nowhere and attack me. As usual I got laughed at and ignored. So Mat got in my car and I warned him about it. He laughed and we pulled out of the driveway and within 30 seconds the wasp came out and attacked him and me until we opened the window and Mat knocked him outside with his hat.

3: A few days after the "aint no change machine at the bank" incident at Porter Kroger me and Mat went back to get a root beer and as we pulled up in his truck. I "felt" something a little off behind us and looked back to see a 60+ black man with greying hair and a crazy look in his eyes running to a getaway car. I told Mat not to turn off the car or get out as we were stared at menacingly by the guy for 30 seconds until he got in the getaway car and sped off. As we approached the entrance the "aint no change machine" lady comes out and frantically asks me and Mat the make and model of the "getaway" truck. (it was later brought to my attention that a similar occurrence happened with me and Felix Navarro.)

  • Victor Beas and Ifiok Udoh:

After Japanese class one day (I was explaining a parasitic plant brought back from extinction and taking over the University of Houston by leeching off of other plants and trees.) And the subject was changed to how I understand animals often more than people and how animals seem to focus more often on me than anyone.
While I was walking, and explaining, and being looked at by my group of friends strangely we noticed a pigeon holding a twig and standing by another pigeon. We passed it up but then I realized he was proposing, so we walked back a few feet and tried to help him out (since she was being cold hearted and ignoring him) but he got mad at us.

So we walked to the "mess hall" just a bit further and were laughing and joking about it when something even crazier happened. I looked down and a red cardinal is staring directly at me with a mean look and bucking up to me. And I'm like "um...can I help you?" and he hopped at me "threateningly" lol So I jokingly explained to the bird for my friends "you know, they are standing closer than I am so I don't know what your problem is." And finally I put my hands up and walked off like "lol ok dude"

  • My girlfriend Kandace "Last name pending" Hudson:

1: While I was waiting for Kandace at willow brook mall in the Sears, I was looking at the huge refrigerators, and washer/dryer combos. When the manager walked up to two employees and told them to come watch me. I know this because I saw him say something to them while looking concerned about me, and by the fact that nobody who is mid conversation says "hey let's move over to that specific spot to continue the conversation" They came and watched me look at things too big to steal until Kandace walked in and they got an "oh ok" look and walked off as I explained to her the situation.

2: For the first several months of our relationship, any time I was driving her to meet up  with her parents, or to her house we would be greeted by a wreck, or a closed road, or a road block, and we would always be late. We even had a bat fly past us in the pitch black on our way to her house.

  • My Mother Sydney Adams:

Often in Porter walmart we end up with weird ones

1: A little girl in a shopping cart at the checkout counter tells her mother "look mommy I'm a princess" and her hideously evil mother turns and with a smoker voice says "You AINT NO PRINCESS" which...was just wrong.

2: While my mom was doing self check out I was waiting but the entrance bench looking on, and out of nowhere a "Doodlabut"  guy wearing all cammo with a cammo hat says something to a woman at the self check out, she says something back, and he walks toward we with newly sprung tears in his eyes, takes off his hat and walks past me and out the doors in a way that justified the playing of the incredible hulk theme.

  • Judy Collins "Dadaw" my grandmother.

1: While visiting the home tour in Galveston she was driving and tried to turn and out of nowhere a truck almost collides with us. A frantic crazy lady got out and came and cussed her out, while Dadaw calmly talked her down. The woman returns to her car and pulls a golf club out of the passenger side, then waves it at us and gets in the driver side and drives away.

2: One day at lunch with dadaw I saw a blue parakeet on the electric wires trying to talk to some crows and ravens. I told Her about it and she couldn't see them therefore did not believe me. A day or so later she was listening to KSBJ on the radio (which broadcasts from just down the road from the restaurant) and the female dj on the radio was talking about the underprivileged kids who are going to go to school the coming semester without the needed school supplies, and how they will feel segregated from the rest of the kids (unless people donated supplies). She went on to say that She was reminded of how the kids felt by the Blue Parakeet outside the window trying so hard to fit in the the crows, and ravens. Dadaw called me and told me about it.

None of this is as weird as the things that happen when I have been by myself. Here's a short list of just a few of those occurrences.

1: I was stopped at Humble Walmart in the ice-cream section by a group of doodlabut church youth group kids who forced me to take a picture with them "messing up my hair" for some sort of scavenger hunt. and one of them said something in doodlabut about me "nawt exshpecting thayut" as he goofy laughed and walked away.

2: After buying a new length of chain with Felix for a new chain whip I stopped for gas on the way home in the middle of the night and had a guy walking up to me with a knife. so I stood up out of the car and pulled out the 5 feet of chain and he said "oh sorry bro" and walked back into the shadows. When I told the clerk she didn't say anything but she looked at me weird. I either called or texted Felix right after that.

3: One time after making to Randall's in Kingwood, I was on North Park getting gas on the way home when my tooth started really hurting, enough for me to become agitated and defensive (cornered wolf syndrome) lol So...as I'm pumping gas, a drunk redneck woman in a blue truck is also getting gas at the opposite end. She yells "hey do you got any food?!" and I ignored her. She kept yelling about it and I ignored her until she said "HEY LOOK AT MY BOOBIES! DO YOU GOT ANY FOOD?!" and I tucked my hat down and ignored her.

My teeth were hurting really bad and I was not in the mood to be messed with. I was focusing on the pain to try and meditate it away when her boyfriend slams his hand on my shoulder out of nowhere saying "hey my girl is talking to you". Within a second the pain got extremely excruciating and I grabbed the guy by the throat/neck and pinned him against the gas pump...Not joking. I do believe he peed himself and walked off. I was texting Victor Beas before during and after this. (I do not like going out alone)

4: Not to mention the 6 or so times I've been pulled over by cops for "acting suspicious" and was asked if my car could be searched, and why I'm acting suspicious. And even having the audacity to come back to the car pissed off when they find out my record is spotless.

5: Pulling out of one of the ridiculously far away parking spaces at University of Houston. (the kind where you actually at a hotel parking lot) An older grey haired black guy runs in front of my car and motions me to roll down my window. I crack it a little (no pun intended Dave Chapelle) and the guy says

"Hey man, I'm not a bum or nothing, I mean...I HAVE money, I just need more money?"-guy

"um...ok? well I'm a broke college student bro, I can't help you."-me

"oh...well can you give me a ride? My wife is down the street and our axle came off our car which is
why I need more money."-guy

"Um...Yeah Actually I need to go...I have um...diabetes...and I need to go home and get my incilin....me.

This dude tells me he doesn't know what diabetes it...I drove off. lol
There are million more I promise you, but my point is. I'm not a liar. I have ridiculous things happen to me all the time. It's like it gravitates towards me. And just because it seems unbelievable doesn't mean it's impossible. Plus 90% of the reason people don't believe me is apparently because my aspergers syndrome makes me seem untrustworthy. Even though I have a clear criminal record and completely clean blood.
(this does not include millions of childhood misunderstandings and crazy stuff. Nor does it include some of the more insane things that have happened in the last 10 years.)



Case and point.
www.wrongplanet.net/postt138285.html

In closing, if you don't believe me. PYAW!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Borrowed Time (short story and soon to be short film)


"Borrowed Time"
a short story by Nathan McConnell

    On a now calm and quiet street he kneels behind a parked car clutching his chest with his left hand, trying to catch his breath and steady his heartbeat. A deep voice yells out "Where are you!?" as a small 2 door car hits the ground just a few feet behind the car he is kneeling by. Unfazed he closes his eyes and starts breathing slowly and deeply…"not yet…come on" he thinks, as he reaches inside himself to find the strength to continue the fight.

     As he hears his attacker drawing near he feels the rain come down again, He knows with the sound the water brings to his skin he will certainly be found. Knowing that he is no longer hidden forces the kneeling hero to act. Before his enemy realizes his presence he stands from behind the car and with a swift motion he turns toward his enemy, and flips the car on its side in the air. He then leaps up and toward the car and kicks it as hard as he can toward the unstoppable adversary.
    
The car hits with great force as the assailant looks up from his bleeding hand. A lightning bolt crawls across the sky like a mother looking for a child, only to be followed by the deep roar of a father's call. As the thunder hits the car is returned to our hero with the same speed that it left. He thinks to himself "No time…" as a look of fear is replaced by anger. He leaps toward the car and rips through the middle trying to gain the element of surprise only to find his enemy came with the now demolished vehicle.

     With the sound and rumble of a full force thunder strike they meet causing a bubble of energy, dust, and sound. Moments later the bubble shatters like a bomb in a glass casing causing and even louder explosion and throwing both adversaries into buildings across from each other. The hero's "tomb" collapses on him, as the monstrous foe stands from his. "Not yet…Just a little more…" he thinks.

 A giant flash across the street from the enemy reminds him that he has not yet won. The building pieces now no more than dust in the rain, pour onto the enemy as a bleeding hero stands with pants ripped and shirt vaporized. He stands across his enemy with as much power as his torn body could hold, his eyes glowing with rage, when across the radio he hears his name and then the words he was waiting to hear…"Were safe! We made it! Get out of there! Go!" His enemy looks up at him from the radio, and with a ghostly look of shock on his face he speaks…"you…you're insane…you knew all along and you still…" 

 Before he could finish, the hero drew even more strength in and appeared in front of his enemy with one final blow destroying the chest and heart of the once proud monster. As he falls to the ground, our hero steps back several steps…he looks at the radio and smiles…he looks at his battered left palm to feel the rain one last time..."ok…" he says…."Now…" He then collapses to the ground as every ounce of energy leaves his lifeless body.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Evolved Aspie Problems


            As an "evolved" aspie who has worked on myself for a long period of time to "fit in" and not seem "out of place", I often have run into the same problem. No matter how good your " neurotypical " act gets (and mine is darn good)...it still sends up red flags. And when you add an accidentally menacing look the results are not good.

            I get security called on me, or employees told to watch me (and pretend to have a conversation near me while watching me), or I get asked by a cop to search my car on a routine traffic stop, or even better a cop will pull me over, ask why I'm acting suspicious, find out my record is clean, and yell at me for having acted suspicious.

            There are a few theories on why this happens, and even some recent findings. Humans subconsciously mimic each other, and if someone doesn't mimic back it sends out "creepy" vibes. Also the lack of eye contact (or too much eye contact) makes people wary of us.  Aspies are different enough to raise red flags, but normal enough for them not to be forgiven.

            And when I explain this to friends and family by saying "People who have Aspergers are often perceived as dangerous, creepy, or up to no good by strangers, police, teachers and other peoples parents." And I always hear back "They don't know that you have it." and I give them a look that informs them of the stupidity of such a statement.

            It's not that they know it by name, and say "hey, that guy has Aspergers...let's fear him." There is something going on subconsciously that makes people distrust us. And I'm smart enough to know it, and even know why. But there are some things you can't just "learn" to imitate. Luckily I decided to take this GABA Plus supplement, and have had some nice effects (Please read other blog)

            And tonight I decided to test out the effect I have on people now that the supplement has made me more focused, and aware. So I went late at night through the Starbucks drive-through, and the Taco Bell drive through. It has definitely gotten easier to talk to people, and they seem to even respond to me better.

            At Starbucks I ordered four drinks for my brother and his friends, and it took a while, so the guy apologized, and I said "Don't worry bro, I know it's just you in there, and you can only make two at a time." and he responded well to me being understanding (where usually I would be misunderstood, or they would read too far into it.)

            And at Taco Bell I ordered my usual, and pulled up and gave him my money, and he smiled at me, and asked if I wanted any sauce, and I politely declined. And in both cases we closed the conversation with "thanks man, have a nice night" and both parties seemed to mean it.
           
            I'm not sure exactly how as of now, but I know something has changed that made them act differently. My thoughts are that before I took the supplement I was often tired looking, (and had the aforementioned aspie problems, including accidentally seeming menacing)  And I did not respond the expected way (as most people know we rarely do.)
             
            In any case, I hope that tonight was not just a fluke, and I start seeing a difference in everyday things like that. You can only go so long feeling like an outsider, a creep, or a monster. Especially when you see your self as a kind, caring, good-guy who would more than likely be the protector of the people around you...you know, when the real bad-guys show up.

-ThatOneWolf

           

Monday, May 7, 2012

Using GABA Supplement for Aspergers


I have Aspergers syndrome, and I heard a supplement called GABA had some effects on aspie problems. So I decided to try it. There were several different varieties online but since patience is not my favorite virtue I went to vitamin world. There I found "GABA Plus" which also has Niacin, and Inositol in it. all of which have varied medical benefits.
 supplement
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Increase in the level of Human Growth Hormones (HGH)
Induces relaxation and sleep
Reduces muscle tension
Reduces stress, anxiety and depression
Promotes well being

GABA is produced in the human brain and functions as a balancer, maintains balance between the body and the mind in states of excitation. GABA supplement aids several complications including Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder or ADHD, hypertension or HBP, obesity, insomnia, alcoholism and many more. It is also a great help in treating mental blocks.

GABA supplements are helpful for any active individuals, bodybuilders and athletes. They help in enhancing the body’s muscle mass, which is GABA’s conductive anabolic property and its lipotropic property helps in fat reduction and weight loss programs, simultaneously.

High Cholesterol, Atherosclerosis and Heart Disease, Diabetes, Osteoarthritis, Alzheimer's disease, Cataracts, Skin conditions, Researchers are also studying the use of vitamin B3 in treating ADHD, migraines, dizziness, depression, motion sickness, and alcohol dependence.

 is used for diabetic nerve pain, panic disorder, high cholesterol, insomnia, cancer, depression, schizophrenia, Alzheimer’s disease, attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), autism, promoting hair growth, a skin disorder called psoriasis, and treating side effects of medical treatment with lithium.

Here is the brand I've been using that includes all 3.
http://www.vitaminworld.com/b-vitamins-803/gaba-plus-caps-008906
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So here is my one week, day by day, play by play of the results of taking this supplement.

Day One:
Within 30 minutes of taking it I started feeling calmer and slightly more positive. I was out in public and wasn't too bothered by it.

Day Two:
Mind is clearer, feeling positive, and handling certain situations better. Best of all I still feel like me. By the end of day two. My visual focus is much more clear, and I feel like I'm inside my body instead of inside my head. Also I'm feeling "sleepy" at night like I'm supposed to for the first time in a while.

Day Three:
It's easier to be "in the moment" and still feel positive even though I'm running into problems. also senses work better. Eating a corn beef and pastrami sandwich at Jason's Deli. I taste more flavors at once and smell and see better. Came home and played "Dead Nation" a 2 player high pressure zombie game for ps3 (It can get very overwhelming) I managed to focus through the ambushes where before, me and my friend would get flustered at times and get killed.

(This is also the day I gave him to gaba's to try and he liked it so much we went and got him a bottle after Jason's.) By the end of the day I noticed my eyes are able to switch focus near and far quickly, I was able to switch between the etchings of stars on window glass, and the tv's at the bar way behind it very quickly. Also, just noticed I was walking standing up straight. Weird. Sleepy when I'm supposed to be. Calm, positive, more self-aware, sensing and processing more information.

Day Four:
Went to sleep at 12am an woke at 630am fully rested and can't make myself go back to sleep which is completely out of character. Also falling asleep last night was even easier because my muscles are way less tense. I had less pain at night, and when I breathed in and out I could sense calm instead of stress. I decided today to try my kung-fu and see how different I was. I was much faster, and in control. I was also able to switch between movements faster, and think of what to do next several steps ahead of time.

Day Five:
Went to Galveston home tour with my girlfriend, and I can remember the whole day. Dealt with people for hours at a time, but not emotionally drained. Finally feel like I'm not missing out on memories because I'm able to watch everything, and interact with it more freely. Came home and fixed some major problems at home which should've stressed me out. But when I was done and my girlfriend started massaging my shoulder blades they just moved around loosely because my muscles are so loose. Usually my entire back is all in knots.

Day Six:
I have never felt this aware, positive, and in control of myself than on this supplement. I no longer feel depressed a lot of the time, my illogical fears just don't seem to affect me. I'm able to talk to people and respond to them better. Eye contact comes easier, my muscles no longer hurt, and I don't feel tense. And I no longer have random aches and pains. I no longer feel like I'm not on my game, or that my vision has blinders on the sides where I can only focus on what's in front of me.

Verdict:
As an aspie this supplement has helped me with quite a lot of problems that have haunted me for a while. I feel more alive, and in control of my thoughts and actions. I'm less forgetful, and have better access to my vocabulary where I was recently coming up short I'm able to walk in the "human world" and talk with various people, and not feel threatened and easily misunderstood. I did not expect the added benefits of stress relief, muscle tension, and repair, pain relief, physical speed increase, and various other things.

I would definitely suggest even a 1 month trial to see what it can do for you. The Vitamin World GABA Plus supplement cost $16-$20 for 50 days worth if your taking two a day. Considering the benefits I've received from this supplement I hope it helps other people as well. I have my sister, and a close friend of mine on it, and both of them were hooked on the first try.


UPDATE:7/20/2012

I started taking the GABA supplement May 1st, it is now July 20th almost 4 months later.
I have never felt better than I do now. On another note there are two new amazing discoveries.

1: Several old severe injuries have been healing during the night. 
   A: A torn muscle that never healed from 2 years back decided to un-knott and heal up completly.
   B: A dislocated big toe from 3 years back that never healed is now stronger than ever.
   C: Another dislocated digit that had a tendon snap is now stronger, and I believe the tendon is back.

2: And I am ecstatic about this one. Male pattern baldness runs in my family, and due to the stress over the years had sped up pretty bad. Here we are 4 months in and not only have the patches in my facial hair filled in (unrelated, not sure what the original problem was) but every follicle on my head is now growing a new hair. They come in completely see through, and then end up filling in the normal color.

I'll update again if I find anything else. For the record this is the brand I have been using.
http://www.vitaminworld.com/b-vitamins-803/gaba-plus-caps-008906