Lifestlyes of the Poor and Aspie.

I am at a loss.

I grew up doing the right thing. I told the truth, stayed off drugs, have a clean criminal record, finished high-school, Got my degree. All the things you are supposed to do according to "everyone" I did. And it has gotten me literally nowhere.

I have aspergers, and always had. I've been mocked, emotionally tortured, picked on, dealt with the awkward situations caused by not knowing social protocol. But I evolved, trial and error, even with the sharp learning curb. I have evolved into a strong mature adult with a fiance, in a very satisfying, and thoroughly thought out strong relationship...but

I sit around every day applying for job after job, sometimes 30 at a time...No responses, no nothing. And before you assume my degree is one of those useless throwaway degrees most people complain about after graduating. My degree is: "Graphic Design 3D Animation A.A. Degree."

A degree in graphic design. I have the ability to use 15 or so of the top graphics programs. Lightwave, Zbrush, After Effects, Premiere, Photoshop, Illustrator, Autocad, and even motion capture and 3D scanning programs. It does not seem to matter to anyone. 

And as I sit around all day applying for jobs until (like right now) I want to bash my head against the wall, my family is struggling, and my fiance is waiting in the wings for me to come through for both of us. And everyone, including myself is losing hope.

I am good at what I do, and I know I can basically do anything when it comes to graphics, but I can't even find an entry level job doing what I do. and when I apply for the proverbial "any job" I'm told to get in desperation from the people around me, I get no responses from them either. Walmart, Target, Best Buy, Fedex Kinkos. Not a single call back.

Meanwhile I'm fighting some parasitic entity inside my body that's been probably solely responsible for most, if not all of the physical ailments in my life. I've had to change my diet completely to avoid sugar, most carbs, all starches, no canned foods, nearly nothing. While taking medicine hoping I can flush this "candida" bastard out of my blood, and my system.

All the while my family is falling apart. Splitting at the seams. Nobody is who they were, or who we thought they were. My only way out of any of these situations is to find work...Work...Hide and seek champion of the last 4 years.

Just had to get that out there. Tip of the iceberg people.

-thatonewolf